Transitions

Hello.

I'm sorry I haven't written for a few days. I planned to write but couldn't put the words on the blog at night. (when I usually blog) It's been a time of transition for me and my family.

"Transitions" is a complicated word.

I think I first truly understood it's meaning when I was nine centimeters dialated and in great pain prior to the birth of my son. The trevail was intense as was the peace after he was delivered.

I learned more about transitions when I heard the words, "Your son has a massive growth in the back of his head," six years later. The realization of those words was intense as was the peace that soothed my soul right after.

Now, we experience this transition.

The fear for his well being is great inside of me. He is leaving the warm, fuzzy coccoon of caring professionals who patiently taught him (and me) and guided him (and me) through every new learning he achieved. But also is the blessed peace that bathes my heart and mind when I remind myself of how far he has come and how faithful life has been to him.

As I sat at his ceremony tonight, I had so many conflicting thoughts and desires. How I wished he was graduating from a "normal" highschool or college. How I wished he was facing a fantastic job or graduate school. How I wished he was standing tall and smart amongst his peers.

Then my heart filled with joy at the sight of him standing there with the thirteen other graduates. He was the shortest person in line but his smile was as big as the others. His diploma was introduced by his teacher, with amazing words-listing his accomplishments and declarations of contributions he has made to his classmates over the years. He has worked hard. He has done a good job.

Now he will face day-hab and part-time work. He has trained in a number of areas. He has choices ahead of him for the kind of work he'd like to dedicate himself to. He has learned important communication and life skills and now he is ready to use them. He has the assurance that he will be successful because he has experienced success many, many times.

I face "resting in the peace" that guided us to this point in life. I face "resting in the peace" that the next group of caring professionals with teach and guide us through new and interesting adventures. I face "resting in the peace" that lessons to be learned will be exactly what both of us need to learn.

Finally, I "rest in the peace" that this transition will be okay.

Have hope,
Donna