Crystal Balls

Hello.

Have you ever woken up in the morning feeling kind of blue? Not hugely depressed, you can see the good things in your life. Just a little blue. That's how I felt this morning. My heart wish for today was that I could get a glimpse into the crystal ball of my life. I was feeling worn and worried and just wanted to know that if in the end, everything worked out okay. It was my hope that knowing what the end was, I'd be able to handle the journey getting there.

Anyways, today was a friend of mine's 67th wedding anniversary. She and her husband are in their early nineties and they still call each other "honey" and look forward to spending their days together. I bought two cupcakes at the bakery and brought them over to celebrate.

When I got into their apartment, I asked them what they were doing 67 years ago at that moment. Both of them smiled and he said, I was at the airport waiting to see if she was going to make it to the wedding on time. I didn't expect an answer like that. She confirmed it. She was flying in from Nashville, Tennessee on her wedding day because the day before there was a storm and her flight was canceled.

Then I heard the story. My lady friend shared with me that she got married in a quiet manner. Not because of anything lurid but because she had little to no family. She explained to me that her mother and father died when she was a teenager...her mom from cancer and her dad from a heart attack the following year. She worked as a mother's helper while finishing high school. The local high school gave her $75.00 (a huge amount back then) so that she could buy a dress for graduation. After that she worked and went to college. She became a nurse and then went back to school to be a teacher because she wanted to do both. She said she had an aunt she would live with when things got tough but she pretty much raised herself. (She had no siblings.)

Then she said it....."You know, whenever I needed anything I always had it. There were times I needed money to live and something happened. Someone would give it to me or something worked in my favor! Can you imagine that? Someone was looking out for me. I was always okay."

So much for needing to look into my own crystal ball. My little old lady friend gave me such a gift this morning. She didn't even realize how soothing her words were to me. I got teary for a second but didn't want her to know. This was her day, not a day for me to whine and cry...especially since I have so many good things in my life.

I'd like to say that the "blues" went away after that...they didn't, but I pondered her words all day long. Her memories and wisdom has soothed me more than looking into a crystal ball would have. Looking into the crystal ball would have shown me the end picture but hearing her words, imparted to me courage and hope so I can find my way...whatever the end picture may be.

Have hope,
Donna